Love is Not an Excuse

I had always felt deeply against extra-marital affairs and a thread in a forum about 'the other woman' brought out my deep seated dislike for such. There was this woman there who keep preaching that there is nothing wrong about being in love. But I think this phrase is wrong when you are in love with someone who is already committed.

Love shouldn't be used as an excuse to dabble in an affair. What is true happiness when it is at the cost of breaking apart families and hurting others? Isn't that just selfishness? Selfishness to gratify the selfish need to feel 'loved'. All affairs come at a price. Yes, it might feel like romantic at first but underneath it all both cheaters are just living out a lie. It is at the price of hurting a child's future and a wife's heart. They say they love each other and yet they are just using each other to fill in what is wrong with themselves. Being in an affair doesn't solve anything. It is an easy excuse, an easy way out for those who can't gather up the courage to face their relationship problems.

Karma's a bitch anyway. As they say, do not do unto others what you don't want them to do unto you.

Beauty and Me

This is me. No make-up. No nothing. All me.

Since I was a child I had often battled with insecurities. I was born here in the Philippines, in a place where almost everybody prizes white/fair skinned people and where the society is bombarded with advertisements about whitening products almost everyday.

To tell the truth, I hated myself. I hated the way I looked in pictures. I never believed my mother when she tells me that I am beautiful. To me, I was a freak who would never be pretty enough because I didn't have white skin, a perfect profile and a pointy nose.

But hey, that's me. I was born this way. And it's just now that I am learning to appreciate myself for who I am. I look at myself now and tell myself that I am beautiful for I have heart that knows how to love. I have arms who readily comfort others with hugs. I have eyes that see the beauty in others. I have a smile that can lift up other people's hearts.

And I wish, that if someone would love me, that they would love me for who I am. Not because of how I look but because of how I am as a whole person.

Perhaps we'll see. Nothing is impossible.

And I realize that no matter what I need to learn to love 'me'. It's not conceited nor is it shameful. I need to love myself for who I am. Because I was born this way, and God has made me this way.

I am beautiful because I am born to be.

Pool Party + Durarara! Cosplay Plans + Addiction DO NOT WANT

I feel so alive again. It's been a long time since I was able to hang out with Faye, Ash, Aira and OMG Jeiro. So I was so happy that we were able to celebrate Jeiro's birthday as a group again. It's like a cosplay_panic reunion and it was epic, oh so freaking epic.

We spent most of the time laughing a lot. In the pool, while eating, while watching Durarara! videos, while watching stupid Youtube vids, while chatting away as if we haven't seen each other for a long long time... which was true by the way. I haven's seen jeiro for a year I think. I miss her.

I miss my other Omerta friends too. I wanted to invite everybody but since it's Jeiro's birthday party, I just want to invite those who know Jeiro and those whom Jeiro knows. So we were only eight all in all. We missed Shinji and Chi. And yes, the rest of Omerta. I hope I would be able to see the others soon too.

Durarara! Ahahahaha just when I thought that I would stop cosplaying, a cosplay plan crops up. Karl, Aidz, Shiro and I planned to cosplay shoot Durarara! because it's freaking epic and we just love it so. I'm so happy that Chi will pitch in and also Faye, Jeiro and her sister Lora. Ah, it's been a long time since I've been excited for cosplay. At least this time I would be able to save a bit since I'm borrowing some stuff rather than buy it. Thank god that Durarara!'s costumes are really really simple and casual.

I'm cosplaying Shizuo by the way. I don't know if the character fits me but I shall do my best and cosplay him with 100% effort.

I think I really should stop playing some facebook games. I've been addicted to Farmville, Cafe World, Pet Society and Restaurant City for quite a while but I realized that it's not a good obsession anymore. I spend almost the whole day checking facebook because of it and not doing anything productive. So I'm planning to not give a damn about wilting plants, , rotting food and such and spend more time creating my portfolio.

I must admit I'm quite afraid of re-entering the corporate world but I also realized that I can't stay as a bum forever. I need a job, not only for the money but for a chance to test my skills and to learn things. I guess my bad experiences with my first two jobs were the ones that were instilling this fear in me. But I must do my best. I need a job, srsly.

Anyway, that's for now. Night!